~~i’m finishing up the schoolyear and everything is weird~~ | Bi-Weekly Update

The title is brought to you by me – a productive sick person with a deteriorating mental state because I’m allowing myself to stress if I’m also productive and also I DID IT, I finished most of my exams and finally now will have time to relax and read. That’s the summary of this too late bi-weekly update, written on the side-effects of important (also bi-weekly) medicine that makes me feel like I’m in a dream state of ‘oh so tired’ and ‘i really can’t sleep’. OOps.

New book posts:

Other books I’ve been reading:

  • I just started reading again, after the exams were over! I’ve barely read anything since february, which hopefully will change soon. I miss sitting down and delving into a story so much.
  • Solitaire by Alice Oseman
  • Heartstopper by Alice Oseman
  • 1Q84 by Haruki Murakami (currently reading)

Added to TBR:

I haven’t been reading many book blog posts from those I follow, which is where I get most of the books I want to read, so none I guess? This never happens

Three things on my mind:

  • Exams were over last week, finally. Well kind of, as I’ve got one oral exam left in a couple weeks. But I did it! I (probably) didn’t fail any of them!
  • I went from feeling like I was failing in physics to get top grades! Based on my grades this happened in one month, as I stressed for six hours straight at the final major test and ended up as one of the best in the class. But grades don’t tell the whole story and it was a gradual process to be comfortable with problem-solving and the theory. I did cram theory of relativity and a lot of magnetism in the couple last days though. I had a final oral test today to prove that I deserved top grades, and I think I got it. What makes this turn particularly surprising to everyone around me is that I haven’t been to class much, dealing with chronic illnesses. Meaning that I’ve really been learning the syllabus myself and so I am actually really proud of this accomplishment, to the point where I was tearing up at the bus-ride home. Also it’s nice to have proved to myself that I could do it considering I actually applied to physics bachelor programs after the summer … makes me a tiny bit less worried.
  • So I’m trying to achieve more of that ~~balance~~ again (imagine me doing wavy arms), after having a lot of partying and fun in may, afterwards (of course) been sick and stressing and worried about sanity and physical health. I missed IBD Awareness day again this year! Kind of angry at myself for that one. But I do think that I want to write some posts about chronic illness and the dilemma of pulling yourself together and getting things done VS. pushing too hard and everything falling apart.

4 thoughts on “~~i’m finishing up the schoolyear and everything is weird~~ | Bi-Weekly Update

    • aquapages // eline May 31, 2019 / 8:19 pm

      Honestly I’m still at the second chapter and it’s been forever. I just haven’t sat down with it and really started. I’m rarely discouraged by size of books, but I just know it’s going to be confusing AF because it’s Murakami and several storylines so I have been picking up other books haha. Are you reading it as well?

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      • Ally Writes Things June 1, 2019 / 4:13 am

        I’ve been reading it for like a year now lmao. It’s definitely complicated, but it’s actually not that bad? I’m usually completely lost but I’m finding it fairly easy to follow along. The storylines merge eventually. I just started the second book, and I’ve been enjoying it more than the first one

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      • aquapages // eline June 1, 2019 / 2:47 pm

        HAHHA read it for a year, thanks now I don’t feel that bad. I’ve got the book 1&2 in one, and it’s a relief to know you don’t feel it that complicated to follow!

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