happy, stressed & coming out | Book Bi-Weekly Update

I watched a pink sunset like this one on one of the first days we moved into this village, and now there was one again as I’m packing up and about to leave.

New book posts:

Other books I’ve been reading:

  • Wild Beauty by Anne-Marie McLemore (DNF’ed)
  • Fence by C. S. Pacat (graphic novels)
  • Big mushy happy lump & Herding cats by Sarah Andersen (graphic novels)
  • Unleashed by Sophie Jordan
  • (Don’t you) forget about me by Kate Karyus Quinn
  • An enchantment of ravens by Margaret Rogerson
  • Sweet evil by Wendy Higgins (SOOO BAD.)
  • Once a witch by Carolyn MacCullough

Reviews coming as soon as possible!

Added to TBR:

  • A million Junes by Emily Henry (YA magical realism)
  • The seafarer’s kiss by Julia Ember (queer girls retelling of the little mermaid, bi main character)
  • Labyrinth lost by Zoraida Gordova (witch, bi girl protagonist, latinx)
  • How to be Remy Cameron by Julian Winters (gay protagonist, I already loved reading “running with lions”)
  • The Last Namsara by Kristen Ciccarelli (ya fantasy with DRAGONS!)

Posts I’ve loved by other bloggers:

Three things on my mind:

  • No one should feel ashamed for not being out as queer/gay because it’s not safe or not right for them at the moment. I’ve seen this highlighted more often this year by out gay celebrity and others, which I think is so extremely important. But also – I came out as bi to my mom yesterday (as I’m writing this at least). I’ve been out to friends from a few months to over a year, but a lot of things held me back. I’m extremely close with my mom, we’ve been through some tough times as a family in terms of illness. I never felt like I was hiding my sexuality before, even if I hadn’t made it explicit. But then its place in my life grew which – along with various other reasons like moving away for university – brought a sense of urgency. It went down well, even if it brought a bit of shock. The timing felt absolutely right, which is all I wished for.
  • Along those lines, I feel like the term “bi village girl” is one I’ve favored much this pride month and this (last) week I finally finished my last (postponed) exam, two weeks after everything else was done. I got top grades and soon I’m only a village girl by heart, as I move on to university. I need to write a love/hate post about living in a tiny community of 1000 people, because aaaaaa it’s been a peculiar road. Waking up at 5am for three years, commuting an hour each way by bus on tiny roads, in every climate and snow-chaos – it’s all over. Which hasn’t really set in yet. Most of the novel I’m working on was created in my head on those very nauseating mountain roads.
  • One of the other reasons I’m genuinely happy: I read books instead of cramming for exams. There was too much shit going on, first I was supposed to have my math exams and started studying for that. Four hours later it’s cancelled because of this big scandal of miscommunication. A week passed and I was so tired of everyone’s shit and also in bad shape physically as I just threw in the towel and escaped into books, and it still went great. I’ve turned around my grades since starting the month of march at the hospital and I’m genuinely proud and shocked over what I’ve been able to accomplish.

This has been a long post, but I need to add another note to it. Things are shitty sometimes. Things will be shitty, actually soul-crushingly shitty, in the future. I really find peace & worry in believing that “everything is temporary”. Still, right now, I’m also proud and relieved, maybe even with sizable time-chunks of happy. And with every bad thing that happens I find comfort in knowing that I’ve gained experience in how to handle it if something similiar hould happen in the future. Dealing with crises makes you better equipped for dealing with future crises. And in the meantime, which is now, it’s best to worry as little as possible, and to do as much of what feels right, honest and great.

This type of bi-weekly update has gone from my least liked post by others to one of the most liked, which I really appreciate ❤

Summer Goals; chronic illness, training, travelling, change

I’ve briefly talked about having mixed feelings about this summer. I don’t know how interesting this post is really, because it’s kind of a mix of bookish goals, survival plans and the fact that I view summer as my new year with resolutions and all. Share any thoughts or questions you might have, I rarely get offended.

I’m the person you want to have with you in a crisis. Since I was a kid, I just act super rationally and deal with it. But what I’m scared of happening this summer is me 1) feeling stuck in a place or around people that I feel is harming (see escape plans) 2) being away from all support through friends and daily routine, making me less equipped to handle bad things 3) dissociating completely because of family/pain/past trauma 4) ending up in the hospital like last year unprepared and completely losing my shit at my unfortune. So this post is mostly for me just having something to refer to solutions if these things do come true.

About summer

I live for the summer. I love the ocean, as you might’ve guessed by the strange name of this blog, and I just feel at peace getting to spend my time like I want, which is mostly swimming, recovering and reading. I’m in and out of hospitals and constantly catching up on school during the rest of the year, but summer has always been my time to breathe. I should be excited about this summer, but the things that has kept me going these past months is in comparison routine, stability and friends. Of not looking too far into the future and the worries that lies ahead. I’m going to need goals to not let everything I’ve got going slip out of my hands.

My goals

Redesign graphics on this blog. I started it with clear ideas and just never had the time to make it as aesthetically pleasing as I wanted. Just make a cohesive thing, how hard can it be. And better quality, because look at the image of this post.

Get a routine to my writing. I’m not claiming I can finish the first draft of my somewhat resembling a novel, but I want to go from writing a lot in a couple weeks and then taking break over the next month to a more healthy routine. I’m very all or nothing kind of person, but I can’t continue writing if it’s going to occupy all my mind and become so obsessive over it at the most annoying times. A weekend of that is fine, two weeks is too draining in addition to school. How do people freaking write?!

Actually get a routine and structure to my day in general. I love being spontaneous, and my summer is based on that, with little plans. The problem is that I fall apart all of a sudden without some kind of base routine. It’s connected with having chronic pain, where with a base routine I know how much energy daily things take. Also I shouldn’t eat X hours before doing a really fun thing, or I’ll be in more pain.

Pack for vacation and then moving. This will be a thing in late june and then again in august. I’m very excited and terrified at once. I currently live in my late grandparents house and my grandma was a light hoarder, meanign we’ve been throwing out things for the past five years, but there’s still more things to get rid of before we’re renting it out. And then my stuff has to be sorted to “going to uni”, “going to loft” and “going on vacay” as well.

Start training. Have I said that summer is like my new years? But honestly, I need to start training in some sense to recover. I’ve been in bad shape since being so ill last summer and I’m just starting to regain muscle. I need training as a stress-releaser for the fall, and starting to build that foundation from scratch is going to require a lot of work. Here’s my prediction: I’ll start with yoga just because it’s softer on the body, grow so bored of it in max the 2nd week, start scouting for martial arts gyms which will all be closed and start swimming a lot instead. My lungs are still too fucked up for straight up running, I think.

Catch up with my reading: both physics science books, writing advice and others. I know I add a lot of books on my TBR every bi-weekly update. Please know that they will not be read in the near future. My TBR is currently 434 books! Another goal is definitely to shorten my TBR, which I have a few methods I want to try through blog posts, but if you have any advice throw it my way. I’ll post a summer TBR soon, because there’s some books I just have to get through.

Etc: spend time with friends (who’s understandably working a lot), spending as much time in the ocean as possible, start learning Python programming (how? I don’t know yet).

Where am I going?

Summer town on the coast of Norway: It’s the place I grew up and then decided to move from, with good reasons.

  • The positives: constantly surrounded by water, lots of places to go out with a boat, a family cabin and lots of bathing spots, a couple friends.
  • The problems: my family there, who have always refused to accept that I’m chronically ill in any way (even as I came out of surgery last year) and I feel the need to confront them all for the sake of my also chronically ill little brother. It’s something that is a big goal this summer, just because I’m 20 years old and it’s the first time I don’t rely on them anymore. I just feel like sometimes you got to make decisions and mark what the criteria for continuing a good relationship with people need to be. I learned that when I was 16 years old refusing to pick up the phone out of a, now looking back, scarily mature moral decision. It sparked a little change in treatment. It’s time for a bigger one.

Denmark: the first escape plan (also will be there at least a week in july).

  • The positives: extremely nice aunt who lives there, extremely good food, quiet enough for lots of reading, baking and recovering. I’m going to buy a year’s worth of tea.
  • The negatives: the countryside, so no people around. Can’t spend the whole summer there, or I’ll permanently become a hermit, which is only bad because I won’t be able to go back into regularly society for a while and that clashes with plans to go to uni.

Amsterdam? My second escape plan. My third escape plan is tenting at the beach. I know where I’ll get the equipment already. It might seem like I’ve put too much thought into this, but at the same time it’s been very necessary before.

Relate to any of this? Are you doing something special this summer? (I have more free time than most, I know)

Rainbows & Unease | Bi-Weekly Update

As I’m writing this the girls in front of me are discussing promoting Amnesty campaigns (I think especially through local youth group’s insta) for protecting LGBTQ people and especially Pride Parade Turkey, so there’s actually queer stuff everywhere.

New book posts:

Other books I’ve been reading:

I’ve been reading again! Which means I’ve not completely lost the ability to, hah!

  • Wild Beauty by Anna-Marie McLemore (currently reading)
  • The life-changing magic of tidying by Marie Kondo
  • Running with lions with Julian Winters (queer)
  • The cybernetic tea shop by Meredith Katz (queer)
  • 1Q84 by Haruki Murakami (I haven’t been making progress since last time … oops)

Added to TBR:

  • The gilded wolves by Roshai Chokshi (YA fantasy, Siobhan loves it so that’s promising)
  • On the edge of gone by Corinne Duyvis (queer dystopia)
  • Brave face by Shaun David Hutchinson (queer memoir, rec by Anniek)
  • War of the foxes by Richard Siken (poetry, queer)
  • Steel by Carrie Vaughn (YA fantasy w/ fencing! and pirates!)
  • You know me well by Nina LaCour and David Levithan (queer YA)
  • A memory called empire by Arkandy Martine (queer scifi, rec by Acquadimore)
  • Out of salem by Hal Schrieve (queer YA with zombies!)
  • City of strife (queer fantasy, rec by Alex) by Claudie Arseneault

Great posts from other blogs!

Three things on my mind:

  • I cut the complaining out of this post. I’ll just sum it up in one sentence; I don’t know when my last exam is yet and I just had to spend an hour and a half to postpone an important hospital thing, and then I can only do two months later… fuck, why can’t anything just be simple sometimes.
  • It’s summer! I’m not as excited about it as I always am, because I’m really really nervous. I’ve been going back and forth with myself about why, but then I realized – the problem is last year’s summer. It was horrible, as I finished my last exam in May last year and was admitted to hospital straight afterwards (with a bad lung infection and fluids pooling up, and also needed minor surgery on my gallbladder). The complications meant I was in and out of hospital far into July. I’m not that ill this time, but I think finishing exams and planning summer is quite the trigger for worry of it happening again. When it comes down to it, the only thing I can do is try to relax, but you know – not that easy.
  • AURORA came out with a new album as I’m writing this!!! The second part to “A different kind of human” and it’s magical. Here’s the link to Spotify. Haven’t found it on youtube yet, but I’ll link to the newest song. I really like “The River” and overall a new album is just the thing I need to calm down. Also the song Daydreamer has definitely something I relate to; “White, silicon eyes, watching storms, sitting quiet// Reading books in the heat of city lights // Bored, everyone’s bored // When I’m restless, put me under the night life stars // And I will feel grounded

Regular book reviews will return shortly ❤

~~i’m finishing up the schoolyear and everything is weird~~ | Bi-Weekly Update

The title is brought to you by me – a productive sick person with a deteriorating mental state because I’m allowing myself to stress if I’m also productive and also I DID IT, I finished most of my exams and finally now will have time to relax and read. That’s the summary of this too late bi-weekly update, written on the side-effects of important (also bi-weekly) medicine that makes me feel like I’m in a dream state of ‘oh so tired’ and ‘i really can’t sleep’. OOps.

New book posts:

Other books I’ve been reading:

  • I just started reading again, after the exams were over! I’ve barely read anything since february, which hopefully will change soon. I miss sitting down and delving into a story so much.
  • Solitaire by Alice Oseman
  • Heartstopper by Alice Oseman
  • 1Q84 by Haruki Murakami (currently reading)

Added to TBR:

I haven’t been reading many book blog posts from those I follow, which is where I get most of the books I want to read, so none I guess? This never happens

Three things on my mind:

  • Exams were over last week, finally. Well kind of, as I’ve got one oral exam left in a couple weeks. But I did it! I (probably) didn’t fail any of them!
  • I went from feeling like I was failing in physics to get top grades! Based on my grades this happened in one month, as I stressed for six hours straight at the final major test and ended up as one of the best in the class. But grades don’t tell the whole story and it was a gradual process to be comfortable with problem-solving and the theory. I did cram theory of relativity and a lot of magnetism in the couple last days though. I had a final oral test today to prove that I deserved top grades, and I think I got it. What makes this turn particularly surprising to everyone around me is that I haven’t been to class much, dealing with chronic illnesses. Meaning that I’ve really been learning the syllabus myself and so I am actually really proud of this accomplishment, to the point where I was tearing up at the bus-ride home. Also it’s nice to have proved to myself that I could do it considering I actually applied to physics bachelor programs after the summer … makes me a tiny bit less worried.
  • So I’m trying to achieve more of that ~~balance~~ again (imagine me doing wavy arms), after having a lot of partying and fun in may, afterwards (of course) been sick and stressing and worried about sanity and physical health. I missed IBD Awareness day again this year! Kind of angry at myself for that one. But I do think that I want to write some posts about chronic illness and the dilemma of pulling yourself together and getting things done VS. pushing too hard and everything falling apart.

Pride & Parties | Bi-Weekly Update

New book posts:

Other books I’ve been reading:

*this reader is on a hiatus as i’m spending all my free-time getting drunk and dancing. not preferable in the long run as my feet hurt so much and i miss book&tea time, but it’s much fun and going to persist another week until exam season is upon me (so more likely semi-hiatus until the end of may)*

Other blog posts I liked:

  • I really haven’t been able to catch up on everyone’s great posts, so if I’m commenting on two week old posts soon that’s why!
  • Run Away With Dream Thieves posted Muslim book recommendations, which immediately added a lot of muslim books to my TBR. Always looking to read about other cultures and learn along with being entertained. Also lovely to see someone who’s muslim liking Angel Rahim in “I was born for this” by Alice Oseman! I thought that was such a great book about fan-culture, but also self-discovery and friendship, etc.
  • Acquadimore also talked about diversity in her post of What changed in American YA from 2010 to 2019. Again with the theme of wanting more non-US YA books and more diverse perspectives, even if it’s gotten better. Whatever gets popular all of a sudden becomes such a trend in the American YA market, making books similar, which is unfortunate I think.

Added to TBR:

Three things on my mind:

  • I’ve been partying and finishing up my final tests before exam season, like I said I would last update. It’s really been great spending so much time with friends! Of course I’ve done things I’ve come to regret the next day, but mostly when I wander off alone at a party bored out of my mind, so now that we’ve all figured that out it’s gone better, HAH.
  • I also went to my first pride parade!!! With friends! It was pouring rain and my feet were so painful after the previous night, but pride surprisingly really shifted something in how comfortable I was, seeing people of all ages show up, along with going with close friends supporting each other. It was in a tiny community for the second year in a row, so it was really visible how much it meant to other people there too. I really appreciated the different christian organizations and groups that showed their support as well, which was a new thing to see for me.
  • AURORA’s new music video is out, and of course I love “The River”

Waiting on May | The Bi-Weekly Update

New book posts:

Other books I’ve been reading:

  • Never let me go by Kazuo Ishiguro (currently reading)
  • The picture of Dorian Gray by Oscar Wilde (currently reading)

Movies and TV series I’ve watched:

It was easter break, so I had time! Homecoming by Beyonce was fantastic and inspirational even for someone who isn’t a hardcore Beyonce fan. The stamina! The comeback right after having twins! The vision!

Someone Great on Netflix is trash heart-break. It’s drug-filled fun trash, but the romance is boring, the actors too great for this, the “edgy relatable millenial” lines so cringy and even a lesbian romance with little screen time didn’t spice things up. If Jaboukie and Gina Rodriquex was in charge of this movie themselves, with no director experience, it 100% would have been three times better.

I’ve really fallen into two sesons of The Last Kingdom on Netflix and it’s vikings and great. Not the best, but great.

Added to TBR:

  • I should have honor: a memoir of hope and pride in Pakistan by Khalida Brohi. I found out about this book through an interview with Khalida on the Fresh Air podcast where she talked about her cousin being killed by her uncle for dishonoring her family by marrying someone she loved instead of who they had chosen. I definitely cried listening to her stories, as she did. It’s just so important to listen to the impact education has on women’s lives, how it gives them opportunities. Khalida is such a great story-teller along with being an activist for such an important cause. However, the first time I listened to this podcast it was because it autoplayed after another one (I had downloaded it) while I was asleep and I had the most vivid dreams on being murdered by family and didn’t realize what had happened before hours had passed.
  • Americanah (rec by Naty’s bookshelf) by Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie, who I’ve readDear Ijeawele from.
  • Becoming by Michelle Obama
  • The hidden power of fucking up by the Try Guys
  • Island’s end by Padma Venkatraman: I realized that the author of A time to dance has written more and interesting-looking books
  • Pan by Knut Hamsun: because this norwegian needs to read more norwegian books
  • Radicalized by Cory Doctorow: recommended on Do by friday

Posts I recommend by other blogs:

Three things on my mind:

  • I’ve been going so far down the stand up comedians on youtube rabbit hole listening to Joey Diaz and that group’s stories (Bobby Lee, Ari Shaffir, etc). I don’t think I’m the target audience for this, but it’s such great story-telling
  • I’m going to be partying the whole month of May because that’s tradition for graduation students here and I have so much else schoolwork to do before that period, to the point where it’s definitely going to pour over into May. No preparations are done either. I need to jump into the ocean, iron stickers on pants, buy ear plugs and a random list of other small and annoying things before then. This is going to be chaos.
  • I cried so hard watching this:

I Prefer Silence Sometimes? | Bi-Weekly Update

The sunbeams were really putting in the effort to reach us

New book posts:

Other books I’ve been reading:

Nocturnal by Wilder Poetry (currently reading)

Added to TBR:

Especially looking forward to The picture of Dorian Gray by Osar Wilde and Fight club by Chuck Palahniuk. Both classics and I really want to read more books with unreliable and/or morally bad narrators

Posts by other blogs I really liked

I’ve been so busy, and I’m going to continue to be for quite some time. So don’t be surprised when I comment on like two week old posts as I go through the backlog, oops.

A couple things on my mind

  • I have some mixed feelings about “quicksand”, the new swedish netflix series, but the story is told in such a great way. After the first episode I had quite a distasteful feeling. Why make it about a school shooter, and a confused girl at that? But the energy quickly changed in the second episode, as it’s obvious there’s more to the story, and from there on it was just such a great psychological nightmare. There’s just no moral high-ground among most of the characters decisions. The best scenes are from the prison cell the main character is in, where it shows how both monotone and chaotic isolation can be. TW: sexual assault, abuse, violence in general
  • Spring is here, people are energetic and hectic. Along with that I’ve really connected with all the things that make me an introvert these last two weeks. I’ve barely spent time at my house, with too many sleepovers in the city (I commute an hour for school and don’t go home if I’m to do anything social afterwards). I really love nature and one afternoon I was repacking my bags (again), and I just wanted so badly to skip that last formal party/dinner. I wanted to go down along the river to the ocean and sit there, and go back and curl into a blanket reading when it got too cold. I need to remember that while I love people, this is my preference most of the time and when I don’t get any ounce of alone time for too long it really tears at my patience and energy. It’s something I seem to forget over and over. Still, I was glad I went to the dinner/party? I don’t know who I am, is the conclusion from that.
  • I wanted to bring my blog over to Twitter, but I didn’t know if I should create an own account? I have one that is barely used that seems like a good option to just rename or rebrand, but I’m unsure.
  • What the fuck happened to Julian Assange today? This is going to be quite a thing
  • The photo of the black hole made me laugh, but I appreciate it
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“Quicksand”, netflix poster
Katie Bouman, one of the creators of the algorithm that made the black hole photo possible

Reading slump, looking for Alaska & music: Bi-Weekly Update

These last two weeks have gone both too quickly and too slowly. Which means I was feeling really bad, so I have not done much, but also stressing over how little is being done. So I’m kind of in a reading slump, but one caused by having too much else to do. Thankfully I’d scheduled some posts –

New book posts:

Other books I’ve been reading:

  • The truth about keeping secrets by Savannah Brown (currently reading, unfortunately not loving it yet)

Added to TBR:

  • Utopia for realists by Bregman Rutger – added after he was on Trevor Noah’s The daily show and I really wanted to read more of some out-there new ideas
  • Salt, fat, acid, heat by Samin Nosrat was one of Rhiannon McGavin’s fav books of 2018 and I really love cookbooks done in a different way, so hopefully I’ll pick this up when I have time to try some recipes
  • The raven’s tale by Cat Winter
  • The cold in her bones by Peternelle van Arsdale
  • A lot of polar fantasy books, because I didn’t know that was a thing before this week

Posts I recommend by other blogs:

Art Journal by Ink Stained Forest is such lovely watercolor paintings! The hobbit door is especially mind-blowing. I recently got the Winsor & Newton pocket box watercolors she has, dreaming about being able to paint while travelling, but I haven’t gotten a chance yet. This is really inspiring and lovely

10 Book retellings by Jenacidebybibliophile. A great list of book retellings which I’d never heard of before, including some new releases. Who doesn’t need a Medusa retelling.

Act your age and read YA by Siobhan Novelties and Why can’t female villains get better backstories? are both great discussion posts

Books with the best writing by Ally Writes Things. I really need to read more of the books on this list, because I agree with several of these authors and love the attention to language they all have

The Dysasters by P. C. and Kristin Cast by Books, bones & buffy is a great review about a book I probably won’t read, but I was really interested to see what those authors were up to nowadays

An introduction to the Inky Saga by Inky Saga, after her rebranding from Betwined Reads!

Reading the lowest rated books on my TBR by Laniakea Books. It’s such a great way to shorten the TBR and I want to try it out soon.

Three things on my mind:

Let’s make these three things youtube videos again, because the only thing on my mind right now is having to learn all of my physics syllabus in five days, before a five hour test that decides whether I get in at uni. Ahhh.

I like Troye, but wasn’t a big fan of “I’m so tired”. Before THIS VERSION, it’s perfect.

John Green’s “Looking for Alaska” is being made into a movie, and here’s the first look at the Miles and Alaska, during a visit to the campus where John wrote the book.

My ABSOLUTELY FAV DANCER Koharu Sugawara was back at Urban Dance Camp and they released this dance video, she and Yuki Shibuya always seem to have so much fun. Watching Koharu’s dances always brings a smile to my face.

New podcast&book finds! Bi-Weekly Update

New book posts:

Other books I’ve been reading:

  • Soft magic by Upile Chisala (review to come)
  • Women in science by Rachel Ignotofsky (review to come)
  • Unngå øyekontakt av Nora Aschim (norwegian poetry)
  • Gull i grusen av Rebecca Kjelland (norwegian poetry)
  • Andvake av Jon Fosse (norwegian)

Added to TBR:

Spoiler alert – it’s a lot.

  • The love & lies of Rukhsana Ali by Sabrina Khan (ya, new release)
  • These witches don’t burn by Isabel Sterling (ya, new release, lgbt)
  • Fence by C. S. Pacat (graphic novel, lgbt)
  • Spin the dawn by Elizabeth Lim (new release, fantasy)
  • A separate peace by John Knowles
  • The lessons by Naoimi Alderman
  • Special topics in calmity physics by Marisha Pessl
  • Rosalind Franklin by Brenda Maddox (biography)
  • The reheasal by Eleanor Catton
  • Obsessive genius about Marie Curie by Barbara Goldsmith (biography)
  • Wicked lovely by Melissa Marr
  • Severance by Ling Ma (sci-fi)
  • So far so good by Ursula Le Guin
  • Plastic by Doug Wagner (graphic novel)
  • The master algorithm by Pedro Domingos (science)
  • Call down the hawk by Maggie Stiefvater
  • Dragonflight by Anne McCaffrey (fantasy)
  • The body keeps the score by Bessel van der Kolk
  • Illness as metahphor & aids and its metaphors by Susan Sontag
  • Kuby immunology by Judy Owen (like literally an immunology textbook)

I feel I should explain the three last books? In my 2019 TBR I explained some of my reading goals, in which one of them was to search for good descriptions of pain. The immunology textbook I can’t explain, other than I heard it was good, it’s just my exsistential crises over choosing an uni programme coming through (still think it’s going to be physics).

Recent book buys:

  • Anna Karenina by Leo Tolstoy
  • In the woods by Tana French
  • The sea around us by Rachel Carson
  • A portrait of the artist as a young man by James Joyce
  • The trial by Franz Kafka
  • Metamorphosis by Franz Kafka

Three things on my mind:

  • I watched Divergent again on netflix. I haven’t sat down and watched the whole thing since the release. It’s not a good movie, but it could be a whole lot worse (like Allegiant aah). The book just gives such an insight into Tris’ fears and fearlessness. What it made me think about though is just how much teenage me adored that book and any book where the main character breaks free and exchanges monotony with freedom, even if it comes with risks. Like the training, especially fight training, parts of a book, tv series or movie is absolutely my favourite part, because the main character has to find their strength quickly. And they’re always unfamiliar with the people and how far they mentally can push themselves.
  • I’ve been sick. And studying. It’s been a bit of a mess of trying to figure out a new schedule that still meets deadlines and tests, which is always fun
  • I’ve been listening a lot to “the Robot and the Unicorn” podcast by Alex Cox and Kathy Campbell and it’s wonderful. Fav episode I’ve heard this far is “Priests and belief”, but if you don’t know about any of them before, perhaps start on another episode that’s a bit more goofy and regular. Also the Ologies podcast by Alie Ward had new episodes on sea turtles and tortoises, which were so much more interesting than I expected!